Wow! It's been a year since my last post.
So here am I, after almost a year of not writing in this blog, I finally come back and writing stuff again. Actually, there’s a lot of stories I want to share here. But the thing is, I always forgot to open this blog. Haha. So, since today I’m quite free and got nothing to do at my workplace, allow me to write something here J
Well, yesterday there’s someone ask me, if I could turn back the time to a year before, what would I say to someone that has hurt me a lot and I still can’t tell him, even after 5 years we were together since he’s leaving so fast and disappear as easy as ABC! So, the next paragraph below will be the things that I really want to say to that person….
Dear you,
It's such a disappointment when you defend someone for so long thinking they're different and they turn out to be just like what everyone said. I thought there was something romantic about fighting for someone, but there's nothing nice about having to continuously convince someone to love you.
You’ve put me through hell, and I called it love. You consumed my entire being, and that's why I let you treat me the way you did. I waited for you. I gave you chance after chance and I cared too much and you didn't care enough and that was the problem. I acted like it wasn't a big deal when really it was killing me inside. I'd rather have nobody than someone who is half there or doesn't want to be there at all.
Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Some people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you. You might still like me. You probably do. You probably don't know what you want. You probably still think about me all the time, but that isn't what matters. What matters is that you're not doing anything about it.
I won't be fooled by your charm, you don't know how to love. I want someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want me in their life. It's like part of me wants you, but another part of me know I'm better off without you. You only want me when its convenient for you, and I'm too full of life to be half loved. I see clearly now that if you genuinely wanted to give me your time and affection, then you wouldn't make me beg or bleed for it. You're going to miss me and when you do, you'll realize you only have yourself to blame.
Now, I’m so glad and so much thankful that you've disappeared in my life. Because now, you are turmoil in my thought and you are poison to my heart. I promised to live a different life. I wish I could go back to the day I met you and just walk away. Because honestly it would've saved me so much hurt and pain.
Last but not least, now I’m so happy with my life that surrounds with a lot of people who loves me and appreciated me J
